作词 : Jeff Gitty/Quincy Jones/Abel Tesfaye/Daniel Lopatin
作曲 : Jeff Gitty/Quincy Jones/Abel Tesfaye/Daniel Lopatin
Looking back now I didn't know what it was supposed to be
And it's like raising kids man
If you weren't raised you don't know how to raise you know
I just did the best that I could with them
Because they know f**kin' well I love them
But I didn't do the best I could
I didn't know what the f**k I was doing
I didn't
I will never forget watching my mother get put in a straightjacket
And taken out of my home when I was only seven years old
She was diagnosed with Dementia praecox and put in a mental institution
Leaving my daddy alone with me and my little brother Lloyd
I later had an evil stepmother
Who further cemented the idea that I didn't need a mother
Growing up without one had long lasting influence
I didn't fully understand until much later in life
It bled into my relationships with family
And those I had became romantically involved with
Whenever I got too close to a woman I would cut her off
Part of that was vindictive and partially based on fear
But it was also totally subconsious
Looking back is a b***h isn't it